i couldn't sleep last night.
at M-'s place, i tossed and turned, waking up at 2, then 3, then 4 and finally 5 am. i dressed, got my bag together and sat back on the bed waiting for M- to turn over. he walked me downstairs and gave me a big hug, saying, 'things will be ok today. they'll be ok.'
i think i mumbled 'i know' or something inadequate and walked to the bus that would take me to the train that would take me home.
i'm at work now and everyone is silent. no chit chat. no 'what did you do last night?' just silence.
i hope i get my pink slip by noon so i can go home and cry in private. then sleep.
i've decided that i'm done with being a do-gooder. i now want to work for the most evil corporate entity i can find in the region, make an obscene amount of money and not look back. really. i'm done.