why i'm staying up late, i don't know. i have a full week ahead of me.
but i'm watching 'man from snowy river' and noticing how parts of it feel close to 'brokeback.' the yearning twangy guitar, the smooth cheeked cowboy alone with his horse, the livestock, the mountains and his little tent.
[god, i'm bored.
being all earnest and non profity is boring. i mean, not really. it's tremendously fulfilling and good, you know? good. but being good is dull.
being good requires patience. i think i have a thimble full left of that substance.
being good asks for a certain kind of dullard acquiescence. and that just makes me more bored. and you know what happens when i get bored?
i make bad decisions.
bad bad decisions.]
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Meow. Maybe you should take up guitar. Or email me your chili recipe
Midwinter is a boring-ass time, that's the problem.
Whyn't you come babysit? That'll cure your boredom ;)
i'll get right on that, dr. b. first flight out, little PK will have the rockingest, most clueless babysitter EVER.
(jeebus, i haven't babysat for a long time.)
uh, as soon as i find the recipe, i'll send it to you. promise! it's really meaty.
But then bad decisions are often the most fun.
more fun! more fun!
Remember, boredom's why some people start smoking...
i'm finding it really hard to find any pleasure in trying to be good and virtuous.
this is why fanny in mansfield park makes me want to vomit. she's never bored. she's industrious and good. she's always thinking good thoughts and suppressing bad things and yearning for her 1st cousin (which is actually bad) and, meanwhile, i'm screaming in frustration because she's so effing BORING.
i lost my point. hm.
my point, i think, was that i'm trying to be good and it SUCKS.
"god, i'm bored.
being all earnest and non profity is boring. i mean, not really. it's tremendously fulfilling and good, you know? good. but being good is dull.
being good requires patience. i think i have a thimble full left of that substance.
being good asks for a certain kind of dullard acquiescence. and that just makes me more bored. and you know what happens when i get bored?
i make bad decisions.
bad bad decisions."
Um. Me too. But if you're bad in little, borderline acceptable ways, perhaps you can avoid making the big bad decisions that make life more interesting than you'd bargained for? Or something, I don't know what the hell I'm talking about anymore.
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